Trapped

I like to read,started my reading adventure with Enid Blyton-The magical tree,classics by oscar wilde.Have read since i was 10 yrs old.Dunt know if am an avid reader or voracious or both.I laughed my heart out after reading Chetan Bhagats 5 point someone.Saw his new book in my newsletter from a book store,its callled 52 states.While talking to a dear friend of mine i mentioned that i am looking forward to reading that book to which he snapped saying he never approved of chetan bhagats writing style,...hmmmmmmmm i went and i decided not to pursue my chetan bhagat book list any further.I dunt know why i did that. Shouldnt I value my opinion!!

Every week after the winning bingo numbers flash on our TV screen i dutifully spend atleast half an hour planning on how i would love to splurge the monies, and I get a massive kick out of it. Every nod, every approval, every action is either related to some preset approved mindset either created by me or presented to me but i have made that choice. I feel like a moth caught in the web of its own shell but am not sure if am the moth or the butterfly. If am trapped in my own life decisions or am free after making those decisions. Trapped in my own desires, my needs, my wants, my pursuit of the right life, the right habitat with the right surrounding and the right people. Is it really freedom for me or am trapped in me?????????